People used to pick on me because I cry a lot. I’m a crier, I am. I tear up at the drop of a hat.
I cry when I laugh, or when someone else is crying. A good movie can make me go through the better portion of a Kleenex box, and the mascara practically melts off of my eyes when I see a grown man crying.
I’ve been accused more than once in my life of being too sensitive. OK, I wouldn’t argue with that, either.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I don’t walk around like a blubbering mess. Things just touch my soul in a different way than others sometimes. Until recently I used to get mad at myself for allowing others to see me cry.
But if I wasn’t so sensitive, I probably would have missed out on a lot in my life. I probably wouldn’t have been able to feel when someone else is hurting or upset.
I might have missed out being able to share in a good cry with someone else. You know, sometimes people need a shoulder to cry on. For some people, showing emotion, whether they are the ones doing it or the ones having to comfort someone, makes them feel completely uncomfortable.
Now granted, there have been those moments when I allowed my sensitivity to get a little out of control, and it has caused my husband, Kevin, some innocent grief, Bless his heart, he handles it well though.
Here is the thing: Jesus made me this way for a reason.
If I wasn’t like this I would have missed out on opportunities to help someone else. I wouldn’t have been able to listen to the Lord quickening my soul to say a kind word to someone, pray with them or cry with them.
Maybe there is an area in your life that you might feel ashamed about or unsure of why you are the way you are — so remember, Jesus didn’t make things just-because. He has a plan and a purpose for all of us. He made us all the way we are for a reason.
The Bible says that He knew us before we were even conceived. He knows every hair on our heads. He knows us inside and out. He knows what we are thinking, even when we don’t have the words to utter them in prayer.
He probably also knows that I would not have correctly handled being any other way than the way I am. For instance, I used to pray to be funny. I really did. After all, who doesn’t love to be around someone funny? But in reality, I probably wouldn’t handle all of the attention of being the funny-guy like some people do.
You are who you are, made with the gifts God gave you because He needs you to do specific things while you are on this Earth. Please find comfort in that.
I just felt the need to put my pride aside today and share with you that even though, at times, when I looked at my own sensitivity as a weakness, it actually has becomes one of my greatest strengths.
Julie Wells can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org.