I feel like I've repeated "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me," a thousand times lately.
Just when I think I am ready to sit down on the floor and absolutely cry like a baby, since I've been experiencing mornings sickness and sometimes all day sickness with our first child, the above scripture comes to mind.
So many people have given me such great words of encouragement, given me suggestions on things to try to eat or do to reduce the nausea. I have been trying so many different things and at times felt no relief.
So when I've been at the point of wanting to pitch a royal fit, I am also reminded that "this too shall pass". I also often think of many friends who have had cancer -- they don't get to pick when their sickness ends. At least I know my sickness will end, eventually.
When all of your strength is used just getting up, and getting to work, church and home, and doing nothing else in between, it gives you a lot of time to think and a lot of time to pray.
There have been days when I wanted to just stay home and not leave the house and I found my self "bargaining" with the Lord. We've all done it, albeit unnecessarily.
But somewhere along the way, I've become even more grateful for when I can get up and get myself some water and my husband Kevin doesn't have to. I've become even more grateful for being able to give my own self a bath and don't need help getting ready.
The little things that were so very challenging for me a couple of weeks ago, still challenge me, but I've grown used to it all in a way and I've adapted.
Isn't that the way life just goes?
Life never stays the same, and you as a person learn things about yourself you never knew. I didn't know that I would be able to go through all that I've experienced lately. But if I hadn't, I wouldn't know, appreciate and have a different kind of compassion for those around me.
At your weakest point in your life, if you look back you'll see where He was the only reason you ever came through your situation.
I know that He is the only way I've been able to get through these past weeks, and He gave me a wonderful husband to be ever more loving through this sickness.
I can't remember a time in my life I have ever been this sick, and it is a sickness that many of you promise me I'll forget as soon as I hold my baby for the first time.
But for now, I learn to lean on Jesus more than I have and trust that He will bring me through this, too.
When in your life have you just been at your lowest point? Are you able now to see that He carried you through it all? He never said it would be easy and He never said hard times wouldn't come.
But what He did say is, "I will be with you always."
Julie Wells is the editorial assistant in the newsroom at the Rockdale Citizen. She can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org.